Friday, July 22, 2016
My Calm is Moving Out
My son is the calm of this house. Whatever is going on, even if it is him I am upset with, it is he who I need to be around. He radiates a sense of calm. He listens and gives a tiny bit of advice. He hugs me. He reminds me so much of the calm I felt with my dad. There aren't many people in the word like them.
Last night we discussed how this is just a new phase and we will have to figure out a new way of making our relationship work. We've been making those adjustments through every stage of his growth. The difference now is he won't be here every day. I already miss standing by the coffee pot as he makes his coffee, having deep discussions. I already miss the lessons I have learned from him on being more open minded. And, I can't wait until Sunday night when he is here for dinner.